Schoolgirl confession: I very nearly failed my home economics class in high school. Of course, by this time home ec had morphed into something that fell under the curriculum header of "Teen Living," and we spent most of our time reading text books and role playing various scenarios intended to enable us to withstand peer pressure and build positive self esteem. In fact, the only two practical skills we learned were how to bake biscuits, which I enjoyed very much, and how to sew a pair of gym shorts, which I decidedly did NOT enjoy. Oh, what a mess. Somehow, my finished product was so lopsided that one leg reached nearly to the knee, while the other was too short to even pass dress code. It was abysmal.
As an Honors student I wasn't used to experiencing failures of any sort. I could spout off ten page research papers with no problems, ace history tests, even memorize the periodic table with relative ease. And although I remember being frustrated at the time, I recall also having a rather flippant attitude toward the whole thing. After all, it was only "home ec." I was worried about my grade, but as far as being able to make a pair of shorts, well when would I ever need to do that? I was a college prep student. We had bigger things to think about.
It amazes me how blind I was in those days. How mindlessly I followed the system so deeply engrained in our culture that is bent upon creating consumers, and not producers. Obviously, I've done a complete 180 in my life philosophy, living my simple little life in my cabin in the woods. The majority of my days now are filled with activities my adolescent self probably would have scoffed at. But don't be too hard on her. She just didn't know any better.
Still, even though I'm happy to spend hours in the kitchen, or even in the garden, the sight of a sewing machine fills me with trepidation to this day. I really like the
idea of sewing, and many of my favorite blogs feature crafty folks who are wizards with a sewing machine. I love the idea of being able to make clothes for Kate, and even myself. But then comes the part where you actually have to sit down and thread the darn thing. And what about patterns? It's like geometry of the worst kind and it hurts my head. And, of course, there's that nagging bargain shopper voice in the back of my head saying, "You could just go out and buy this a lot cheaper and with a lot less headache." Sometimes that voice wins out, but on my better days I know this is not true. Yes, perhaps I could scour the clearance racks and find "great deals" that might cost my personal bank account less than a piece of nice fabric. But somewhere down the line, someone is paying the expense of these "cheap" goods, whether it be the exploitation of underpaid workers in other countries or ravages upon the environment from factories and transportation. I don't mean to sound preachy, this is just the sermon I have to deliver to myself, whenever I find myself slipping into a mindless consumer mentality.
Ethical issues aside (because honestly, it's doubtful that I'll ever get to the point where I'm making
all of our clothing), I've also reached the conclusion that sewing is one of those things that a person should just know how to do, whether it is their grand passion or not. There are, of course, super talented folks who will be able to work magic with cloth and thread. But for the rest of us, there is still the aspect of sewing that is a "skill" that can be acquired, versus a "talent" that must be innate. With the abundance of ready made, "cheap" goods on the market, my generation has pretty much looked upon sewing (and many other important life skills) as a hobby. Both my grandmothers were excellent seamstresses, out of necessity. One of them enjoyed sewing, the other did not. But even the one who did not particularly enjoy it, knew how to do it, and do it well. It's sort of like cleaning the bathroom. I don't particularly look forward to it, but it's one of those household chores that has to be done. Truthfully, I think despite my reservations, sewing has potential to be a lot more fun than cleaning the bathroom. It's just going to take a little work, attention, and perseverance to get myself to a skill level where I can enjoy successes rather than rip my hair out over crooked seams and tangled threads. I'll let you know how it goes.